Grow a pair

I originally was going to post a blog that I have been editting and writing since november. I never published it because once I said it, I wanted it to stick and be perfect. Then I realized that is impossible. It can never be perfect when someone's love life is continously changing. I mean just in the time I was writing it I went through Nowell, Brandon, Cristobal & Jarrod. If not others, but I can't remember lol. Damn...I am a naughty girl.


BUT it isn't that like I don't want a relationship...I just won't settle. I get into a routine & it's the same almost EVERY SINGLE time. I will meet a guy, not give a shit bout him or communicating with him for the first week (or two months-sorry Jarrod lol) then all the sudden my perception changes. Could be I stopped talking to one and can now focus on this one or they say or do something that perks my interest. Then out of no where; I have a plan. I map out in my mind the perfect relationship me & this guy will share. They are all unique in their own way but they all idolize me! lol jk. For serious though, it all would go perfect if they just did what I wanted when I wanted.


In the end...I look back and wonder what could have been possibly done differently? One; I could have just kept at a distance like I wanted to; had my cupcake and walked away but no! Fucker had to confuse me. Two are on going so I can't divulge. There was this one time though I was head over heels for someone I knew was COMPLETELY wrong for me.

 He was just gorgeous...I couldn't help it. He was like a black Zeus to me. lol. If I could of kept that physical, my loins would be set; but kinda hard to do that when they are in Hawaii...(& they are batty as shit)
Does anyone remember my ex Marcellis? Ugh; what a trip there. Mean, mean, meannnn. The best part; he never could understand how he was so mean!


Whoa- I just went on a serious tangent just then.
Bottom line without divulging too much information: Why can't I combine two people...then they would be perfect and I would be settled.

Pffft...Monogamy. Who really needs it? Ugh.
Grow a pair and be your own person.