Off with her head!

This is a compilation of my most recent poems. They aren't meant to be ONE giant poem, but if it fits, then cool.

Listen close; its only for today

These wings were made to fly

Soar way oh so high

When rock bottom seems too low

Jump on the back of a doe

Kick off and shoot for the moon

Bcz you will be far above soon

Motivation is in the wind

Dont be discouraged and descend

Love and Live in the skies

Look down and only view the dandelions

No more pondering on the fallen trees

But gaze upon the high seas

Truly shoot ahead

Everything has already been said

Lolligag in the wonders that are upon you

As your wings gently coo

For everything bad is gone

Everything is cardinal

These shackles are cutting into my bloodflow

Cutting off the circulation of reason

Barreling into my heart a state of confusion

Causing a herd of wrong feelings to overtake the castle built inside me

That was originally suppose to protect me within it's walls, but is now overtaken by Sins

Greed has lengthened my fingers, pushing me to reach for more

Sloth is cutting at my ankles, forcing me to fall

Glutton has raped the opening of my mouth with drive to want

Envy is probing the outlet of my eyes

Wrath has puppeteered my arms to cause harm to any that dare

but they can only do so much, while true evil awaits to conquer my soul

Begging out for my inner guards to help

as my senses become aware of what lays ahead in the dungeon

I fight the good fight as I feel my thoughts being dragged

Bloodied and torn from fighting, my power is draining.

I can only hold back for so long, until they come for me

Maybe I can somehow get past this and regain my strength.

Desperately searching, praying for a distraction to slip past these dark, cold stones that once held such beauty and passion within them

I see a weakness, but is it a trick?

What if that weakness is within my heart?

A mirage clouding my vision

Warmth creeps up my legs, soaking into my chest

Light is slithering within the bars

Promising hope of safety

Take it, take it, TAKE IT!

Then it happens

Slamming of the door to meadows  brings realization that my dungeon of fear hs been my prison all along

Sneaky,sneaky,sneaky of you two

Four hands outstrretched, knowing I cant fight, I cant fight

The temptation of one and rightfullness of the other feeds my belly

I want it! I want them!

As my eyes turn a radiant Gold,

My form twist into an illusional beauty

Everything is overtaken, my old skin stripped from right

It is done, I am theirs. Forever.

True
Sinfully masked she is;
A veil to hide the weakness
of true insecurity
A beautiful smile she cast out;
Shadowing the weary eyes
of the all knowing
Entrancing-her hair drapes;
Distracting the look of seekers
from her ugly soul.
Is it truly ugly
or is that the wages of her atonement?

-The first one is something I wrote on a very positive day. I was influenced by one of the most remarkable women I have ever met: Morgan Parker.
The second one is based on my inner battle of wills and wants. Targeting my two major sins: Pride and Lust.
The third was inspired by how I am viewed by the people who see me on a regular basis. But who I am, really?

*Also I really love feedback-good or bad. I am always looking to grow as a writer. Don't be scared to tell me!

Where the grass is green & the girls are pretty

   March will mark the new beginning for StormyBooFbabyHunna.:D Not only will I be skinnier, but I will be embarking on my journey into a home with the most lovely of lovely Courtyfaccee:"{) -like my moustache?
   We have great plans from adorable decorations, wild drunk "video" nights & quiet reading sessions. Preferrably a romantic thriller cuddled up w Har-Har & a blankie (maybe a Mermaid. A Mermaid-Pineapple juice and Coconut Rum):::YUM.

     I have this major toothache that makes me wanna slam my head into a wall just so I can feel something other than this throb. It's my stupid molers. They do this every six months; allow me to go through some pain for a few days then disappear for awhile-never really moving or adjusting; just pain. Like a bitchhhh.

   With next week being New Years, I have a few party, party, party wyte gurl wayyysted events to attend that shall be rather fun. I heard a saying a good three years ago that was, "Whatever you do on the first day of the year is symbolic to what you will do the rest of it." I have tried to think back on this and see if it is accurate. Year '09 I was pulled over for my very first speeding ticket & I worked beer wall for the Outback bowl; I spent the year working my first job & ruining the 6 months my high school grades. Year '10 I went to sleep before 10 am and worked the whole day with my douche of an ex; therefore I spent that year making bad mistakes on guys and being lazy. Year '11 I went to church and then worked out; Of course I spent the year rebuilding my coreself and appreciating the people in my life more. I plan on going to Gaybor w my two boyfriends:), then a good ole country bonfire, so what does that mean you think?

Follow you heart always

-Expect problems and eat them for breakfast.
Alfred A. Montapert

 

I was thinking about how BAD I have slacked off on my diet due to the holidays & it hit me-New Years Revolution. Holy shitt. Every year it is SUCH a big deal to me to create a two list of three things I want to achieve. Why two list, you ask? Because one list is a list I can start immediately and achieve fairly early and the other is one that will have to happen over time.

So with this; why not make my revolutional list public? Wanna hold me accountable?!

Here's my first list that can be worked on immediately:

 

1.Lose an additional 15 lb by March (but continue striving)-which will put me at a total of -50 since last year.

2.Have everything for my new apt w the Bestie<3 & be moved in.

3.No matter what; strive at work.

 

Here is to the more longterm, work in progress list:

1.Be working on achieving another raise at work.

2.Be more invlolved in the people's lives that I love.

3.Hit my complete weightloss goal and start maintaining.

 

But of course, I am my own worse enemy and I sabotage myself on a daily basis. My mother tells me all the time. I absolutely cann ot approach this new year the way I did last year. I am better than I was.

-Side note; Stop dating the wrong guys, douchebag.

What if God was one of us

Another loose cannon gone bi-polar
Slipped down, couldn't get much lower.
Quicksand's got no sense of humor.
I'm still laughing like hell.
You think that by crying to me
Looking so sorry that I'm gonna believe,
You've been infected by a social disease.
Well, then take your medicine.

I created the Sound of Madness.
Wrote the book on pain.
Somehow I'm still here,
To explain,
That the darkest hour never comes in the night.
You can sleep with a gun.
When you gonna wake up and fight... for yourself?

Amazing song, amazing lyrics. I haven't listened to this song SO MANY times and even sang every word and never comprehended the full meaning til I read the lyrics. Damn. I think the lead singer of Shinedown reached into my soul & ripped out my madness. How did he know?!
Lately, I have felt a little out of control. There isn't enough time in the day. I think I live at work. Then at the same time I feel like I am constantly being watched like someone is waiting for me to mess up. This job means EVERYTHING to me. Like, EVERYTHING. It has opened so many doors for me and I can see a bright future, not to mention the things Phil & I have dsicussed. I just got to keep my eye on the prize. I just get soooo distracted. What if there were 36 hours in a day? That would be RAD. I cld sleep 10, work 9, gym & then a social life! YES! & not be panicking over "Am I skyping too long? I need sleep." I have to sacrifice somewhere. First it was my social life and here lately it's been my sleep. Ugh:/
But I cant HELP IT! I am just overstimulated by the internet & the power to virtually video chat! How did I ever live before Skype? lol
Like I have this awesome Australian buddy now. That would of never been possible before. (Hey Marek:D)
& I can keep in touch w my Marine Japan & other people I dont necessarily see on a daily basis or weekly.
Do you see my issue? I am over stimulated! Over communicated!
But then at the same time, I'm lonely.
Ugh, fuck that.
No, I am JUST FINE.
Or is that just the sound of madness? Am I infected by social disease?

What ever happened to simplicity? Granted, I have never been a simple kinda girl-I am quite complicated. I blame it on being a Gemini. I have this friend Deraven who is a Gemini to the core just like me. But he is a different type of Gemini. More of the outrageous side. I would like to think I am more of the controlled hothead. Thinking of it, I am really attracted to Geminis. Gina, one of my closest friends isa Gemini & I adore her bcz of her outrageousness. Japan is a Gemini & well...you know how that one goes. &&& there have been others. I guess I just really like Geminis. We are fun as shit. But fucked up. Or is that just me?
I'm glutton for Pain.

With winds stirs dust

I deleted my last two post a a few reasons. But do know this is my personal blog & I may say or do whatever I feel. If you don't agree then make an "I hate Storm Blog".

I skyped w one of my closest friends Gina lasy night & she always levels me pretty well. She is most definitely very dear to me. We have had our ups & downs but that girl is one of a kind. I feel this way about a few females. That's my problem, I care about everyone.

Anyhoo, she really helped me and didn't even realize it. I don't take amything for granted but I dont always appreciate people the way that I should. I tend to get sidetracked. I am very much ADD the older I become. People will come & go out of our lives & we have to venture into the unknown sometimes. Always keep an open arm but another fisted incase of strife.

-Now about my diet; I steadily at 12 lbs since I started the new one. that's -34 lb since January. I am not loosing as fast as I wld want to but that's my fault. I get so busy with work and stressed that I sacrifice the gym. It isnt the diet cz I am doing pretty well (minus the potroast  I had last night). I have felt sick last few days so haven't eaten much. I may just take the weekend to Carb up & then plummet back down to diet hell on monday. I think I hve deserved it, right?

*Two lessons learned in the past week.