8 days slugger

Today marks my 8th day. I happened to weigh in yesterday & I lost 5 lb:D Go me, right??!! Downside, everytime I weigh in if it isnt 5 lb or more I wont feel as accomplished. 5lb a week would put me at 4 months to lose 80. 80 is a MAYBE. I dont know WHAT I will look like at that weight or even 60lb. I havent been that small since I was like....13?! Dang.
I am unusually down today. I could possibly name a few things that have put me in this mood, but honestly I just don't know. It could be this diet but I just dont know. I feel so unloved today. I want to just sleep.
have you ever just wanted to be hugged for a few minutes and told sweet nothings? That's me today. I keep asking myself what could possibly make me feel better and put me in a better mood, but what I imgaine won't be happening anytime soon. I really dislike writing or allowing others to know I am down, bcz it gives people the sense of superiority. Showing weakness is never a good strategy, but I honestly don't care at the moment. My happy face is slowly falling today.
Btw-Protein shakes: the colder, the better.

Let it Rain

As I daydream about my future body, jamming to FloRida's "Low", I have a realization. I am really crude, vulgar and innapropriate. I mean, professionally I know the limit and how to censor but as soon as I leave this icebox of an office, the beast is unleashed!
Not really a beast, but you get what I mean. It isn't that I am a hellion or some God hating Atheist. I am actually the complete opposite. I love God and I try to do right, so then why am I so rough? My family is sorta the same way, but not to my extent. I can throw the F-bomb easily without thought. My favorite saying is SOB (Thanks Dean Winchester from Supernautral)
I just DONT like to fake my personality and being "crude" is just apart of me. I have a best friend-love her too death- that is so cute and proper majority of the time. (I must drive her nuts) Then there's Courty, she's exactly like me in mannerism, lol.
Do you think I am too much?

Day 4 of misery

FML.
   I am currently on my fourth day of starvation. (I am not really starving, just feels that way) In truth, I am eating every 3 hours BUT IT ISN'T WHAT I WANT to eat. I think I would kill for McDonald's Sweet Tea and a Double Cheeseburger w no pickle and no onion. Mmm, get in my belly.
Hm, maybe I should explain.
Hello, my name is Stormy & I am a ferociously sexy 21 yr old. One problem: I am a tad chunky. I have been my whole life. I blame my Granny and an undying obsession for Nestle chocolate milk. I decided to begin documenting my experience because this could end up being hilarious or life changing.
I always hate the first entry to a blog or diary. It can dictate the tone of the blog, which in truth-that changes daily, because we as people change daily.
I have this ridiculous picture of Khloe Kardashian in a bikini on my wall that says "Wanna be Fat or be That?" She looks pretty sexy in it. right now, that's my motivation for when I am at work and growing weak.

I want a fucking Pepsi.