I weighed in yesterday, only a lb:( Not too happy, but it was a rough week all around. It's amazing how I hold things in. I must really take after my father more than I knew.
I miss Mo.
Maybe that's part of my issue last week, I just wanted her, you know? [still do]
Anyhoo, I have to focus on my goals at the moment. I let them slip & I have to stop that. I AM SO PISSED I ONLY LOST A POUND!!!! I thought I would drop quickly-its my own fault though, as always. I am a whole - 9 lb in three weeks. That's 3 lb a week average but that isn't going to get me anywhere near my goal by the time I get my apt! I cant seem to decide between 50 or 80 lb. I want to be comfortable, but I have NO CLUE what I will look like 50 lb less. I am just shooting for whatever makes me physically comfortable. A size 12 jeans would be rad:D I am possibly going to lose my boobies:( No Bueno! Depending on my insurance, I may just get surgery-I may need to with skin. If I am going to kick my ass and drop the weight, I think I earn surgery lol. No implants though, just a lift.
-This "No boyfriend til I drop my weight" sucks too. I mean-there are plenty of potentials & ponies BUT I cant help but miss & think about certain ones &&& I cant stand it. :(((((((((( At the same time though, I don't need a man to make me complete & that's my whole point to this stand I am taking. I'm single by choice bcz when the right one does come along, it will make it all so much more worth it. I don't even know if I believe in marriage for my generation. I want what my grandparents had, but that's a fairytale & I don't believe in fairytales. I want what country songs are made of. If the
[Off topic BUT I just had a conversation in regards to pity with a coworker & it really got me thinking...Why? Why pity? Pity does NO GOOD. It just makes the person feel even more down. People need love, support, & a firm kick in the ass!]
So here is to FIVE LB THIS WEEK! :D
Now you listen to me Miss Missy... 3 lbs a week on average is HIGHER than the norm. You be proud for losing a pound and not gaining an ounce. Don't worry about 50 or 80 or whatever you choose to lose in the end. Give yourself smaller goals. I know, for me, I want to lose a total of 95 lbs. If I dwell too much on that number it's depressing... cuz it's so far away. But, when I focus on 20 lbs - girl, I already lost 14 (in 4 weeks) and that kicks ass. And you kick ass too...
ReplyDeleteYou can do this - and with realistic, attainable goals... you will get there before you know it. Remember... it didn't show up overnight, it sure as hell isn't going to give up residence that quickly either. I'm proud of you!!! Hugs and love.