My weak moment

Wheweeee.
I don't have a fucking clue if I should say this or any of this. Should I just shut up? Fuck; I am terriried to write this. Fuck, fuck, fuckery, fuck!...FUCK.

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I am inlove.

Holy fucking hell.
Shit. Shit. Shit. Shittttt.
I am PRETTY positive he won't be reading this anytime soon, therefore I thinkkkk it's safe to blog this.
I AM FUCKING TERRIFIED, but excited. I haven't felt this emotion since I was a dumb teenager. I think I may be going mad, call me Alice. What am I going to do?
It is way to soon to be feeling this...I think? There is not really manual for this kinda thing.
I mean everyone has their opinion on whats normal and honestly this isn't! May 26th was the fateful day I met the wonderful, kind, delicious Wilder. My man<3 It's August 1.
We made it through the summer...

I'm inlove.

But should I be? I mean rationally it's only been a little over two months. (He swears 3, silly man lol) I mean, I guess everyone goes at their own rate but damn.

I am PRETTY sure its mutual too but to be safe,  I won't fb post this until after it is said.
Damn, I will feel really fucking stupid if something goes wrong. Though; I doubt it will. I am just so god damn happy. All I think about is being with him. We have spent every weekend together and it truly is the best fucking time of my life. He treats me exactly how I want to be treated.

I fucking love Davis C. Wilder, I LOVE HIM. Shit.

Why am I even blogging this? I need to calm down. Calm down and carry on.

but...I dont want to. I want to scream it from the rooftops. (How gay?) Like that Rascal Flatts song.


Ugh. Ok. Ok. Okkkk.
Calm. And. Rational.

Davis came into my life at a very...complicating time. I had just had my feelings smashed by Blake due to the fact that I wouldn't settle for two years then when I did, I got duped. I was communicating with Glenn and just didn't know what I was doing. Davis was in the wings, waiting. Then after my birthday it all seemed to click. He asked me to a simple dinner and everything began. I adore his family, ADORE & they like me! THATS SO AMAZING. After Aaron's crackpot of assholes, it is so refreshing to be with someone who has such a great family that I genuinely love being around. Everyone really likes him and likes us together. It is just sooooo good. Like a fairytale; no not a fairytale-those end.
Just.So.Amazing.
He's a muscian\songwriter and it's sooo fucking sexy. My little Ginger! We're the same height, which I usually don't go for but he just has such a BIG presence. He's the man in the relationship, you know? I love being the little lady. He quit smoking for me, like quit! Who does that? A really fucking awesome guy. Davis is considerate and thinks about me. He takes me out, shows me off, hold my hand and gives me just the right amount of PDA. He just makes me feel alive and loved. LOVED-though he hasn't said, but it's coming. Please God, let it be coming.
 I am able to still be me, be Storm which is so great.
Ugh- I sound like one of those annoying lovebirds.
Hopefully I am not annoying anyone reading but... shit!

I hope to look back, read this and nod while smiling :)