I use to hate changes because they happened so much in my life. I went from home to home as a child, never having one strict household to model after but a combination of shitstorms and people trying to show me the way. Now that I have grown older, change isn't such a bad thing. I mean, positive changes of course. I tend to get bored with normalcy and everyday routines. Not to say routine isn't good, it keeps me sane.
I am craving a little spice in my life. I use to burnnnnn with passion about life and about what I was going to do about it. When did mediocrity over take me? Was it the time I tried to function financially on my own and let bullshit get in the way or was it that time that I realized my dream of being an author was harder to reach than I imagined? Whatever the reason, I am done settling. I am more than this everyday barely getting by life with no drive or passion.
I have decide to pursue my love for writing. I obviously need training and help. It's been awhile since I took a proper grammar class and let's be honest-I could use it. I set out to join a writer's group and have already printed out tips for manuscripts. I don't just want to write, I want to produce! I want my beloved characters to have faces. I want to share them with everyone! They are begging to be known, BEGGING! I don't even care if I am known. I just want people to know Beya, know Nathaniel, know Tyk...know all these amazing characters that have so much to say!
I'm not stopping there either. No, no I am not. I am going to set out to further my education, however need be. I plan on sticking with my job for however long I can. I love it here, but I want to have something to back me up. If I am going to put money into schooling or training, it will be in what I love. Writing is what I love. My characters are who I love.
A life of adventure is for me.
Bravo baby bravo!!!
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